Sunday, February 28, 2010


i'm going somewhere daddy
i do not wish to tell
my only burden is that you wonder if i'll burn in hell

my bones weaken daddy
for you i'll never speak
of things that scare you yet implore you; things that make me weak

i live for your love daddy
it is my one mistake
among a lifetime of degrading words I cannot fake

my tongue has fallen daddy
"one year in every ten"
i fall into your empty shadows just to see your grin

my heart has hardened daddy
i am too young to scold
like you do when i am wrong, or when i am too bold

life is my party daddy
i am a clown disguised
as a girl who is afraid of her own demise

i scream in rapture daddy
my mind is like a clock
i feel the earth beneath my feet, i hear the words, "tick tock"

an angel has me daddy
an angel: broken, brave
an angel worthy of my time, an angel that i crave

i am so saddened daddy
that i let you down
that i'm a mess; that who i am will never be profound

it's curtains for me daddy
time to turn away
time to make me, heal me, mold me out of your dirt clay

father we are the same
this you cannot see
for you my heart beats in pain;
for everyone but me


i am the world,
the world is me
i am THE EARTH; the dirt,
the trees.

look at my hand:
one less than five
fingers; linger,
live and thrive.

in my room,
purple den
that's where i make
and destroy men.

i thought I couldn't
write again
but here i am,
alive in SIN.

Saturday, February 27, 2010


breathe on me
breathe on me
words you say
come to me

in the night
in the bright
shadow's earthly
man of might

strength and brain
jeans and chucks
unzip yr pants
make some bucks

kiss me
kiss me
I'll show you where

love me
hold me
I am despair.

Friday, February 26, 2010


you shot me down.
you scalped my crest.
my ever-present,
breathing, breast

my tongue it slays
your words they soothe
the death's divinely-
maiden of doom

roll me now
into a ball
of ever-driven,
worthy, law

kill me
stretch me
out upon your bed

hold me down
and make me

heavy lead
worthy bread
make me hurt
for now i am fed