sinking ships (ode to fellow nymphos)

anger and desire

the two are side by side

in my bed weer made of lead

you left me and i died

now i walk in heaven

now i walk in hell

this bed we made if just for shade

has cracked my rotting shell

i am the crab sans home

the angered silver spoon

i lost my cause put game on pause

howled at my twin the moon

lover of destruction

hater of mankind

hold my hand iim sinking sand

too late for change of mind

sooner that we leave her

sooner that weer there

see the sound my lovely mound

under your dark glare

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i breathe, you shake, i shiver

your hard under my hold

your hands they drift my shirt you lift

your fingertips are cold

im agile when you hold me

your grasp i cant evade

wet desire old thoughts transpire

your moans a serenade

we wake in early morning

the sun has yet to rise

wake with my tongue your heat it sprung

last night we soon reprise

you fall back asleep

you say i wore you out

my knees are burning from your yearning

but still i feel without

cooking in the kitchen

push up against my back

now you rise with lusting eyes

i take what you unpack

these letters my impression

i write solely for you

hang them high dont say goodbye

i know you want me too

letters from my mom in rehab

you think nobody sees you but I see you ma'

lickin your gums like you've broken the law

you think you're so funny when you sit and you stare

but my god the pain to know nobody's there.

I'm glad you're alive.

Not sure what that means.

They said you have written me

from your gas chamber fiends.

it's a means to an end

this cutting you out

oh no i don't hate you

but with my love there is doubt

you should have gone farther

smashed yr head in a door

i hear yr 'so sorries'

but im so fucking bored